But are you sure you’re praying to the “right” God?
If not, daily prayer will make your life worse, not better.
I know of someone who prays everyday, but is very cruel to everyone. When I talked to her, I found out that her image of God was horrible. She was not praying to God but to a caricature of God. No wonder she was horrible to others too.
Because in her mind, God was always angry at her. Judging her. Punishing her. And she simply mirrored this angry God to others.
Yes, she prayed everyday. But everytime she did, she was exposing her soul to this false god.
I know because this was my experience.
Many years ago, I had a distorted image of God. My Bible said that He loved me. But somewhere deep inside, I felt God really didn’t like me. I felt He was obsessed with my sins, constantly catching me with my hand inside the cookie jar.
Looking back, I now know this was all a projection of how I saw myself. I projected my self-disdain onto God. And my brand of spirituality corroborated with my projection.
In my mind, God was some type of benevolent tyrant that wanted my attention and allegiance. If I gave Him my love, He’ll be kind to me. But if I didn’t give Him my love, well, He’d punish me to Hell forever.
And whenever I prayed, I felt God was ashamed of me.
But by His mercy, God’s Love conquered my wrong image of Him. And God’s Love conquered my shame and self-hatred. Little by little, I saw cracks in my perverted understanding of God. Gradually, I realized I was worshipping the wrong God.
And step by step, I began to experience a different God.
A God who first saw me as His son before a sinner.
A God who saw my good before my bad.
A God who wasn’t obsessed with my sin, but obsessed with how wonderful I was.
A God who celebrated me.A God who cherished me. A God who really, really liked me!
It was in my thirties that I began to love myself.
Today, I’d like to guide you in changing your image of God.
Have a transformational Feast today!
May your dreams come true
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