When I was still in school, I was a very shy kid. I know it’s hard to believe but it’s true. I would seldom raise my hand even though I knew the answer to my teacher’s question. I was a diligent student and I would finish all my assignments. But, when it comes to recitation, I would show my work to my classmate and let them give the answer to the teacher. I really didn’t mind doing so during that time, because when my teacher checks my notebook, they would see that I’ve done my work.
The shyness in me continued when I started working. When there were team meetings and we were asked for suggestions on how to improve our work, I would shy away and not verbalize by ideas. I would just let my other teammates know of my suggestions, instead of raising it during the meetings. But then, it turned into chismis wherein we talked about what’s wrong in the current system and not really solve the problem.
As I reflected, I realized I wasn’t really shy. I was afraid to be rejected. I was afraid not to be approved. I was afraid my answer would be wrong or my suggestion is a failure or that my teacher or my boss would just laugh at my suggestion.
I believe my shyness was the result of this ‘Need for Approval’ mindset I have. Then I started asking myself, “and so what if I’m rejected?” Then in prayer, I checked my heart and thanked God because I know He loves me and will not ever reject me.
Friend, don’t be shy but shine! Shine for Jesus. Shine your greatness. Shine your love. Jesus is with you every step of the way.
JIMLY,
Jan Silan
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