Ironic God

In the PROSPER series, God demanded me to be generous despite my family experiencing financial crisis. In the OVERCOME! series, He expected me to become a conqueror even though, at that time, everything seemed to be falling apart in my academics.

In A LIFE OF NO REGRETS series, He anticipated me grabbing every opportunity, when it was difficult to take risks. In the AWAKEN THE HEALER IN YOU series, He expected me to have His power to heal when I was struck by physical and spiritual illness.

Yep. That’s how ironic He is. I don’t know why or how but every passing teaching series suited my life situation during the period when they were being delivered in the FEAST. It was like God was intentionally having them as His challenges to me.

Now, as the T3 series had its debut, He was expecting me to give my all.  To give the TOTAL of me to Him.

Well, I have no problem with that. After all, He deserves everything.  My God has blessed me so much in my relationships, in my studies, in my service and in my health. In every aspect of my life, God has poured His Great Love on me since the time He gave His life for us at the cross.  And yes, He’s worth of my time, my talent, my treasure, my everything.

Definitely, I have no problem with giving my all to Him. That’s what I thought —- at first. Because, lately, I’ve felt something lacking within me. I couldn’t determine what it was but I felt that there was something missing.  So, I turned to God and asked, “Lord Dad, how can I give You my all if there’s lacking within me?”

He had blessed me with everything but yet, all of a sudden, I felt incomplete. I contemplated. And, then, I sobbed. I finally realized what was lacking.

I felt incomplete simply because I had not yet given my all to Him. I had not yet surrendered all my weaknesses to Him because I still kept on sinning. I had not yet offered all my fears because I still kept on worrying. I had not yet dedicated all my best for Him because I was still satisfied with my mediocrity.

I had not yet given the total of me to Him because I still felt incomplete.

Honestly, our God doesn’t need our time, our talent or our treasure. If He does, that would be crazy! He is God! I’m sure He can have everything He wants with just a split of nanoseconds. What God really wants to have is just you; the good part of you, the bad part of you, the whole you.

by Mark Maliwanag

Manila Feaster

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