Break Free!

I found the Lord when I was 16 years old thru the Junior Cursillo.  There I made several

promises to the Lord that include hearing mass on a daily basis, praying the rosary, and visiting the blessed sacrament as often as I can.  They turned out to be empty promises as I easily lost interest in them and ultimately lost Him for 20 years....

In 1987, I heard the Lord calling me again.  It is a long story..... 

Three years after getting involved with the Light of Jesus Community, I had a very stable relationship with the Lord. However, in all those 3 years, I would always be asking the Lord for forgiveness for all the sins I had done, especially those against Zenaida, my wonderful wife.  Every morning, I did that until one day I heard the Lord whisper in my heart, "Tell Zenaida all your sins!"  I was stunned. For several weeks I stopped asking for forgiveness but the message of the Lord kept ringing inside of me... "Tell Zenaida all your sins."  

One day I took the courage and told Zenaida all those secrets that had been weighing me down all those years.  As I expected, she cried profusely.  I knew she would be badly hurt but I hoped that she'd get over it easily.  The next day when I got back after work, I went home to an empty house.  She was gone!  I looked for her everywhere and asked everyone whom we knew but no one knew her whereabouts.  I was devastated.  I thought I completely blew it.....

Days after she returned and told me she has forgiven me.  She needed the time and space to allow her to think things through and listen to God's voice within. After that, I was so happy to have confessed my sins and laid my heart out to the one I love as it hastened the healing of our relationship.  

The Lord's message was not in vain.  I needed to believe that I am forgiven and God had to use Zenaida, human as I am, to show me forgiveness.  If Zenaida can forgive, accept, and love a sinner like me, how much more can God, the fountain of love and mercy, not forgive me.  It is written, "though my sins be as scarlet they shall be as white as snow."   

God's forgiveness and love can drive out the shame and guilt of any of our darkest sins... 

Break free without shame in the love and mercy of God!

Rudy Mallari 2

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